17 The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them;
he delivers them from all their troubles.
18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
19 The righteous person may have many troubles,
but the Lord delivers him from them all;
I have always been told that GOD will only give you what can handle. What I have learned through this is that you don’t know what you can handle. You don’t know what curve balls you will get thrown. No matter what you going through life keeps going.
March 29th I woke like it was a normal Sunday, as normal as my life had become. It was a good day because I had energy to get up and go to church. I had spoke with my mom and she had rushed me off the phone. Something was wrong with my Aunt Karen and she was still getting details from my other aunt and had to go. I called my cousin to find out what he knew all I was told was that the next 24 hours where critical. I figured she would be ok. I prayed left it to God and went to church. By the time I got out. It had changed. It wasn’t good. My entire family went to the hospital. I couldn’t. My cancer was keeping me from doing what I do. I hated not being there. I hated that I wouldn’t be able to say goodbye if it was time.
I stayed home and waited and waited. I got the call. My aunt had died. I dropped to the floor. I didn’t know what else to do. I had so many questions. Mostly just why? Why did GOD think we could handle this. My family is close. We were all trying to get through my cancer and my aunt being sick and now she is gone. Why?
Nothing at that point made sense. Nothing that was happening wanted me to go forward. Life sucked.
Then I remembered when I first found out I was sick and I talked to her. She told me to fight. She told me to never give up. She told me she was proud of how I was handling it. She told me my faith was strong and I need to hold on to that. My aunt who was sick herself was encouraging me and not to give up. I still don’t know why GOD felt it was her time but what I do know is that I am going to keep trusting Him. I am going to keep fighting this fight because she would want me to. I can hear her fuss at me whenever I want to stop. Her voice kept me going her voice kept me strong. GOD has been in control from day one and I have to keep that faith. Be Blessed.