So. Where do I begin…. I have always said that if you want to get GOD’S attention tell Him your plan. This year I made a vision board on New Years day. I was focused to do everything on that board. I low key enrolled in school. I decided to eat better. Work more on my body including my hair. I was going to focus on my family. I was going to do it all.
On January 11th I was in the shower and I felt a pebble in my breast. I didn’t think it was anything. I have been in and out of doctors offices half my life and usually they dont have answers. I went to my mom she felt it and told me to go get it checked. I went to the doctor thinking it was nothing. She sent me to get a mammogram and a ultrasound just to be on the safe side.
On January 13th. I went in and got it done. I went back and met with the radiologist that same day. I had masses on both sides and under my left arm. He basically said it wasn’t good. He asked if I had someone to drive me. I told him no. I would be fine. I got in the car and sat there for a long time. I couldn’t comprehend why or what was about to happen. So I did the only thing I knew to do. I prayed. I prayed and asked for peace. I asked for a purpose because I didn’t see it.
After I prayed I drove to my parents and told them the radiologist said it wasn’t good. They looked concerned but didn’t want me to worry. We thought it was time to tell my sisters. When I called them they both basically said the same thing to me. What do we do next? Not me. We. They were determined to be by my side the entire time. I would never go to the doctor by myself ever again. The next day I met with my doc and she immediately referred me to the KU cancer center. No biopsy. She already knew. We met my group of doctors and they all knew.
They set up a biopsy basically to see where I was. I was diagnosed with stage 2b breast cancer. Although I knew it. It still hit me like a ton of bricks. I’m only 30. I have a 8 year old. This wasnt supposed to happen to me. I went to my docs they made a plan. We had a plan. I was gonna get through this. I believed them. Not because of anything they said but because of what GOD said. Romans 8:28 “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” I knew it didn’t mean I was going to live but I knew that what I was going to go through was going to glorify him and it was going to be ok.
Whatever the outcome. I’m going to be ok. GOD can bring life to a dead situation and that is what He is doing for me. Before this I didn’t realize it but I was dying, not physically but spiritually. People have always told me that I have a greater purpose and I need to accept my calling. Instead of doing that I ran. I didnt want to have that responsibility I didn’t want to be more than what I was. But the thing I was focused on was me. But now I know it isn’t about me.
My sisters gave me the greatest advice. What are we gonna next? So instead of running. I know to ask GOD what’s next for us? My goal is to glorify Him through all of this. This is what this blog is about. My journey. My journey through Christ. Be blessed.